Dear diary,
Its pretty apparent to me that i am a five minute man.... Not like that, In the sense that i am incredibly enthusiastic, motivated etc. though only for a short period of time, before i lose interest and take up another conquest. Though im going to try an re correct this. If i put it in writing theres no way to undo it.... i have no problem with erasing memories, i got my good friends that can be found at 'first choice' or 'dan murphys' at discounted prices to help with that, which kind of scares me because theres probably allot of things ive done, that ive forgotten, maybe even forgotten twice. Though once its typed thats it. I've watched enough movies to know that data can never be erased, somehow theres always someway to track keystrokes, sure theres ways of hiding them, but history's taught me that nothing ever really stays hidden. I'm sure one day they'll even find that holly grail that they've been looking for.
So it continues.
I'm committing. Or at least going for 10 minutes. I'm a realist, i cant help it anything over 10 is taking it a bit too far. I'm going to continue diarying(i know this isnt a real word, though due to my lack in vocabulary for not knowing the verb for writing in a diary this will have to do). I'm going to go over my past ventures and clock on another 5 minutes, and maybe even another 5 after that, who knows.
"The sky is the limit".
But not really. Because i used to love hearing "deep and meaningful" phrases like that. Though now ive come to the point where im trying to draw meaning from that which has none and "the sky is the limit" was just something a student heard his\her teacher say that they continued to take out of context, to form some "profound" inspirational quote. If you really want something, you are the only barrier, not time or money, if you want it bad enough you'll find a way to make it happen. If its not happening its because ive got my priorities mixed up, or simply im not trying hard enough.
"so beigins the first day of the rest of my life...." I really am thankful that there has been so many word-smiths over the course of time so that, i can add more content to these entrys, so that hopefully i can look back and be impressed at how powerful my writing is , when really the power comes from the stolen words.and the illusion in my mind. Thats what i needed to keep the ball rolling, something a bit deeper, a bit darker, but really just the same old drivel....
dazzatwentytwo signing off
--More 2010 unpublished blogs
