Everybodys got a story to tell

Dear Diary,

I know many things, i would even go as far as saying that i know more than the average person, how much of that is actually useful, i'm not going to compete against the average person, because in actual fact what happened in the last episode of House md, may not be deemed as all that useful....

Though what i know really isnt what concerns me, mainly because i already know it. What concerns me is that useless bit of information that your keeping from me, that strictly speaking really is none of my business. Throughout my life ive spent hours upon hours living up in this imagination of mine, just having a jolly good time. While im up here(here being my imagination), i'm always thinking about what that conversation i missed was all about, and its all been because you've baited me with key phrases like "thanks so much for that", "its going to be awesome" or "yer that was allot of fun". A few times ive been brave\intrusive enough to ask, "what did you do?". "whats going to be awesome" or "what was fun" , more often than not to be denied the information im seeking and most probably given the label as busy body or some iteration of that. Or even worse, hearing the ever so boring truth.

 Now don't get me wrong sometimes people have extremely interesting stories, but generally i haven't met anyone with more than say 10, this might be because i need to get out more, or my expectations of people are too high. But yeah, no more than 10 are interesting enough to get drilled into my brain and give me an immense amount of enjoyment. These are peoples trophy stories, generally they are that good to hear about that 10 years later that story or an iteration of it features in a scene of blockbuster out of hollywood. One of my good friends Allan told me a story about a stint he had in a city where he had been mugged and held at gun point, for me this was one of his extremely interesting stories, Allan was a pretty interesting guy though he's probably one of the few people that i know who has about 10 stories. I think that might be a character floor of mine, or maybe even of humanitys that we only find something extremely interesting if it involves a high amount of risk, and the stakes involved are high.

 Though after those stories everyones got about 500 mediocre stories that are moderately interesting and serve no real purpose other than to help pass the time. Allot of these stories are like personal jokes, they're the best if you took part in the event, though if you were unfortunate enough not to be, you sort of give off a weak sense of agreement and a half assed attempt at a chuckle and hope that the next story is going to be a little more interesting or include you. Lets face it, everythings more intresting when we get to hear about ourselves.

Either way I'm not enjoying this re-telling of events as much as if it was one that involved me, or if it had some element of high stakes.... actually thinking about it now i also enjoy hearing about events, where people i know act out of character, i find this amusing also. Like you know what i mean, if dare-devil dan jumps off another building, who cares ive heard this before, but if mums-boy matt joins the gypsy jokers and is tangled up in a drug scandal, you've got me on the hook.


dazzatwentytwo signing off

--The final unpublished post of 2010, its been a walk down memory lane, some good material here that just needs a bit of refactoring

Real motives work.

Dear diary,

I'm a 5 minute ambition man. I'm very ambitious about achieving anything, but only for 5 minutes. Once that 5 minutes has past I find myself losing interest. This really inst working for me, something needs to change. I need to find out why i lose intrest so quickly.

After hours of pondering this i thought back to my 5 minute ambitions, and realised that my only motive was boredom. So now im going to go back to my lost conquests and explain to myself why i need to achieve them. The first that came to mind was my fitness regime, I told myself i was doing this to get healthier and therefore happier. Then something tripped, i realised that i can lie to other people but i cant lie to myself, it simply wont work.

 So ive restarted my fitness regime, gym, swims and runs you name it, and have been successfully keeping up with it all for a month (which is a milestone for me). The cause for this is that im not lying to myself about the motives anymore. Being a regular bus\train catcher, i have on multiple occasions missed my ride by 30 seconds or less. This is a huge inconvenience and ruins my schedule and my mood for the rest of the day. Now if i was fitter and able to run just a little faster this would no longer be a problem. A month in and this is no longer a problem, and it has nothing to do with leaving the house 5 minutes earlier every day. Its the reason im able to stick to my routine

As mentioned before I'm learning to speak Chinese. Which is great, because now i can tell people that im learning another language so i can explore and understand another culture, if i tell people this it makes them think im rather sophisticated. Where is in reality, I've cracked. I've had enough of people speaking Chinese in front of me and having no idea what they're saying, but no more.


dazzatwentytwo signing off

--some 2010 drivel, guess I get a bit repetitive

The pre-outing.... the hassel

Dear diary,
Ocasionaly i get invited to outings, may it be with family, friends or something more. Which is great because i love getting invited to things, however inconvenient or commonplace they may be. Now getting invited to go gym, play video games or beach are probably my favourite things to get invited to. Not because these are the things i enjoy the most, but because they require the least pre-outing preparation, aren't time sensitive,local, and the least capital investment (as mentioned before im a bit of a tightarse).

Though occasionally  , im invited to lunch\dinner\breakfast\drinks. All of which require an amount of pre-outing time investment that really takes a bigger chunk out of my day than i would care to commit to.

The prees.
Pretty embarising to . That voice in your head yelling food at you, and im just getting started

The clothes
Like everyone else ive heard the saying or an alteration of "back in my day....", well i bet back in your day you didnt need to worry about dress standards just to have a meal at a restraunt or a few drinks at your local pub. You have no idea how much it pains me to bust out the iron. Yeah ironing only takes what? 2 minutes. Though your not including the half an hour that it takes me to look for where i put it 6 months ago, or the time it takes to source out a clear flat surface that my portable ironing board will fit on, that's within 2 m of a power point, which is allot harder than it sounds.

The transport
Im a terrible parker, so if i can help it i like to arrange

--Incomplete 2010 ramblings

Small victories

Dear diary,
The majority of my life I act with the opinion that the world is out to get me. Sometimes it might be the bird poop on my windscreen, that sticky stuff on the bottom of my shoe. Those inconveniences like the traffic that doubles the travel time of my trip, that dodgy card reader that wont let me withdraw money, so i have to pay $2 to get it out of one that will . You know just those small, inconveniences that just make you SNAP when you're on a losing streak.

Really though i need to stop being a pessimist, because ive had way too many victories to offset these.
Like the amount of times the fare machine has not worked so i get to ride for free
Roomates buying kleenex instead of homebrand toilet paper.
The list goes on.


dazzatwentytwo signing off

--Another gem from 2010... there's some ideas in here I need to explore further... will edit later :)

You had a great weekend, well thats flippin awesome

Dear diary,

The weekends a few days past now, its Tuesday. But i still havent caught up with all my regular acquaintances to see how theirs went. "How was your weekend" is one of those staple questions that i resort too if i have nothing better to talk about, maybe this comes back down to etiquette. It's one of those questions i resort to so i dont need to ask "How's the weather been lately?", because we all know, unless  the weather is imperative to what you're currently doing the conversation your having is a bit of a train wreck.

Anyway, I do like to hear how peoples weekends went, see what en devours they got up to, just basically what they did to pass the time. Though i do get extremely jealous if my friend went to a concert when i was sitting at home studying

Heres an example:

"How good was the Florence and Machine concert on the weekend!!!" 

If i was there.

"Yeah it was awesome, how good was she when she played Dog Days are over".... and the conversation continues in a light hearted manner with both parties thoroughly enjoying themselves.

If i wasn't there

"Yeah it sounded awesome I listened to the radio stream of it afterwards"

or "I dont know im sure it would have been i had work" or "I'm was too broke"... Either way deep down im thinking %#@& you, you know i wasn't there are you just trying to piss me off, because your doing a good job.... or if im in a good mood im thinking that's great im happy for you but i really can't relate at all since i wasn't there.


dazzatwentytwo signing off

-- Publishing this gem I wrote back in 2010, guess I haven't changed much haha